10:01 and this night is gone. I spent it ill while the world moves on.

I wanna sleep but there are nightmares when I try =/.

The cost of textbooks is wayyyyyyyyyy overpriced. It's ridiculous. It's absurd. It's preposterous.

I can't believe I spent over 500$ on textbooks today. I know it happens every semester, but ever semester I'm amazed at how overpriced they are.

AND I BUY USED!!

I guess I should be thankful...when I was at that other school this fall, I would have wound up paying 700$ for books...

-sigh- Why do things need to be so expensive?

I seriously can't believe I just dragged myself out of bed for this...
Ugh...

Thank god I have hot pockets and wired though...

I really need to stop eating stuff just because it's around...
I'm sure this is how people wind up getting fat...
I swear it's the drugs...

I don't know what made today so different than any of these past days these past few weeks...
It was just worse for some reason...
I had to do something, so I took a second one...thought it would help...we'll see...

I don't think it was such a bad thing to do...=/

Whisper in the yard and turn the trees all into toys
Lay there on the ground, and turn the dirt into your joy

From what I see, and what I know, it's all been boring lately
So I suggest we trade a question mark, in for a maybe

Time your riddles right, and make a point that has no sense
Make sure that you're smiling, and the money's been well spent

Innocence and ignorance, it all goes hand in hand
I'm not sure that I'm right, but I hope you'll understand

I hope that you're still searching, for the start that has no end
And all the plastic people, have now become your friends

Before you start to drift, and your soul begins to scream
I just wanted to tell you that you're listening to a dream

My feet are itchy for some reason right now...just felt the need to share that.

It wasn't about you. It had nothing to do with you.

I have someone in my life now, that I love. It's not what you and I had, it's very new. You know what makes it new? I trust him, I know him.

That's great, it's nice. You moved on, I can't; You found someone new. I'm not allowed to, remember? I see you again, it cuts me up inside, and the only person I share that with is me. You don't know me anymore, so don't come down here with your great new life and expect me to do things your way.

The faith perspective

How are things today?

Everything's five by five.

I can see it your eyes you're hurting
But pain is part of learning who you are
All these truths can sometimes be deceiving
When your whole world comes crashing to the ground

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall
When you come undone

You know I can't be like everybody
Cause I can't tell you what you want to hear
I don't know if I can make it better
All I know is I will be around
When all your hope has left you know you're not alone

Tell me everything you need now anything at all
And I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall

Yellow cake. Yep. I said it.

I don't get it...
When did material things stop making me happy?
I got two shiny new toys today...and they're great and all, but they just make me feel...nothing at all.

I wish i could go back to being greedy and materialistic like I used to be. Things were so much simpler and easier.

Life was simpler, love was simpler...I was simpler.

I hate people who are fake. i can't stand dealing with putting on a face and saying and acting things that aren't true. I can't stand when people ask things just to do it and don't really care to hear the answer.

Don't ask me how I am if you don't want to know. You ask how I am, and I tell you and it's not what you want to hear and you get mad at me. What am i supposed to do? I'm not going to lie.

i've been depressed lately, everyones seen it. and if you don't want to see that, it's fine. just don't ask how i am if you don't care, i don't want to deal with the fake formalities if you ask and i tell you it's just wrong of you to get mad at me for telling you.

I don't give a damn about your conscience either if that's why you ask, just leave me the hell alone.

Great, now you all know i'm depressed, not like you didn't know already. You all know that everyday i don't want to get out of bed because there's nothing to get out of bed for, that i wish i could just get some relief from feeling like i've been feeling, that it would all just go the fuck away.

i don't care where this puts my standing with anyone. if you're really my friend you'll still be my friend. if you're not then i don't care if i never talk to you again.

I haven't posted anything in a while because I've been keeping myself busy not giving myself much chance to think about things, hence the lack of time and ideas for stuff to post. I guess I'll try and post something tomorrow, not sure what though...hmm...


Yes they deserve to die, and I hope they burn in hell